being a hearbreaker ( revised a bit)

Being a Heartbreaker

I pushed my door open,
just like I always-
pushed the best ones away,
and I was laughing at myself,
Made myself the joke,

Once I fell in love,
Once he got close,
I treated him no different,

He was captured by the highs

He was about to see the lows,

It rained on his parade,

And I just left him there,

I just kept playing,
with any live soul I chose,

When he made me laugh,

When I knew ,

I was about to crack a smile,

I was gone with the wind,

I always wanted to beat them at their game,
I always did,
Even when love called me,
I didn’t want to lose,

Today I decided to play fair,

I leave my heart open,

For real heartbreak,

Not just his

being a heart breaker
how simple it was,
yet, not at all

You end up getting beat at your own game,

And not know it at all

( I don't like this revision, I didn't want to revise this poem at all lol )